refined through the flame.

I've been thinking alot here lately. Thinking about how I'm lonely and how I miss Texas. I think about how much I love my husband and how lucky I am that he loves me like he does. I think about how I miss my in-home families and making a difference in the life of a kid.

Last night I felt down, frustrated and sad - pour Mr. B had to ride out the storm with me. He feels bad for taking me away from Texas and all my friends/family, he hates seeing me so lonely. I keep telling him that I know God has a purpose for us here and that things will work out. It's just been a tough transition - though I'm not sure you can still call it a transitional issue 10 months later... sigh.

I continue to pray and to seek God's face for peace and purpose here in KC. My top 5 prayers are as follows...
1. For God to provide a job that I can make a difference in and feel purposeful in while bringing glory to his name.
2. For God to continue providing means to pay down my student loans and lighten our financial burden....
3. For God to bring people into my life that life me up and that I am able to lift up and bless.
4. For my heart to find rest and comfort.
5. For God to place angels around my family/friends and keep them safe.

I feel like I'm being refined while walking through this fire of uncertanty. I'm trusting that God has a job in mind for me and that he will continue to provide for our needs. Faith is often a fickle and funny thing, it's tough sometimes to carry it with you but in the end you must have it to believe.

Ive been praying for a scripture that would be "the scripture" for the year.... I'm thinking that it's Joshua 1:9
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

This verse has brought me confort multiple times through this transitional time. Especially during my time at KCK. Things are looking up. I'm loved by an amazing christian man who loves me more than anything. I'm finishing up several projects I've been postponing and cleaning out the apartment. Lucky lady.

Thank you Lord for your tender mercies and for always providing for my needs.