Seasons changing

17 days and counting... well technically 15 days and counting (I'm at home ... sick today and will be taking off the 19th for my test) - so 15 days and my heart will be happy again. :o)

I will say that I have seen God move in my life and in my heart over the past 8 months while working my way through my position at KCK. He's taught me patience {grummble, grummble}, grace, understanding, life isn't fair, it doesn't matter what people think and being more qualified doesn't always work in your favor. I told Mr. B last night that I thought I was struggling so much was because I wasn't allowed to work at my maximum potential all year, every time I'd start to open up I was either shut down or relocated. lol. I can't stand not to do a job to the best of my abilities.

I can remember years ago cleaning my aunts jenny's house for her and my aunt susie helping me and she would tell me - clean like your cleaning for Jesus, and so I adopted that into my work - work like you're working for Jesus. Do your best, leave it better than you found it and try and make a difference.

I struggle because I doubt my impact - I felt restrained and limited in what I could do... now that we are nearing the end of my sentence I wish I had been able to do more. Though at this point, I feel the strong sensation to just let it goooo... I came, I did, and now it's time for my season with KCK to come to an end.

There is a season for everything.... Ecc. 3:1-8 :o)

In other news, my test is now 16 days away (including weekends) and my anxiety is growing by the day. I've solicitied many prayers and am stopping each time I go to study to take a few minutes clear my head and talk with God. He's in control, even though I desperately want to pass this test and feel all this doubt and fear each time I open my book I'm confident that he has a plan and a purpose for my life. Passing or failing does NOT define my skill set nor does it define who I am. God has a plan and a purpose for my life and he will continue to direct my paths.

I'm stepping out into the darkness and one of two things will happen - I'll fall or I'll be taught to fly. I'm betting on the later. :o)



Alright, I'm back to studying. Have a blessed day.